How far I've come...
Sitting here looking out the window at my snow blanketed back yard, it's hard not to think about my summer in Colorado. In 2006, I had the amazing opportunity to live in Summit County with some of the most awesome people I've ever known. That summer helped me to see what all I had been missing.
Through a program called Kaleo, Student Mobilization gives college students the opportunity to be completely sold out for Christ with no hinderances. I remember as a kid leaving church camp, I always wished that church camp could be year round. Well, I got part of that wish when I went to Kaleo. I was surrounded by people with a common purpose and immersed in His word for a whole summer!
At the time when I went to Colorado, I had not even begun to date Toby. In fact, I told everybody that Jesus was my boyfriend, and we were doing just fine :). But, you know? I prayed for my husband even then. I didn't know it would be Toby, but I prayed for him all the same. It's amazing how God can guide and direct your path if only you seek Him. This truth has been ringing in my head here recently. The closeness I felt to God that summer has definitely been lacking in recent years. I've come so far, yet I've gotten farther away.
Life took off full speed when I returned home that summer. I started dating Toby that Christmas, was married the next year, started PT school the following year, was blessed with Kylie the year following that, and now here we are almost five years later. Through all that, I have pushed God to the back burner.
And, now I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being lukewarm. I want to be on fire. I want to pursue God with my whole heart, not just part of it. I want to make much of Him. Getting back to the basics is essential. Studying His word, memorizing His scriptures, praying to Him more, sharing His truth...these are things that I miss. I've gotten so wrapped up in my own little world, that I have taken for granted the faithfulness of God.
God is all powerful and all knowing. He knows me better than I know myself. He is worthy - worthy of all honor and worthy of all praise for He created all things. I pray that we are all challenged to pursue a deeper relationship with Him and seek to glorify His name.
Through a program called Kaleo, Student Mobilization gives college students the opportunity to be completely sold out for Christ with no hinderances. I remember as a kid leaving church camp, I always wished that church camp could be year round. Well, I got part of that wish when I went to Kaleo. I was surrounded by people with a common purpose and immersed in His word for a whole summer!
At the time when I went to Colorado, I had not even begun to date Toby. In fact, I told everybody that Jesus was my boyfriend, and we were doing just fine :). But, you know? I prayed for my husband even then. I didn't know it would be Toby, but I prayed for him all the same. It's amazing how God can guide and direct your path if only you seek Him. This truth has been ringing in my head here recently. The closeness I felt to God that summer has definitely been lacking in recent years. I've come so far, yet I've gotten farther away.
Life took off full speed when I returned home that summer. I started dating Toby that Christmas, was married the next year, started PT school the following year, was blessed with Kylie the year following that, and now here we are almost five years later. Through all that, I have pushed God to the back burner.
And, now I'm tired of it. I'm tired of being lukewarm. I want to be on fire. I want to pursue God with my whole heart, not just part of it. I want to make much of Him. Getting back to the basics is essential. Studying His word, memorizing His scriptures, praying to Him more, sharing His truth...these are things that I miss. I've gotten so wrapped up in my own little world, that I have taken for granted the faithfulness of God.
God is all powerful and all knowing. He knows me better than I know myself. He is worthy - worthy of all honor and worthy of all praise for He created all things. I pray that we are all challenged to pursue a deeper relationship with Him and seek to glorify His name.
"For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well."
Psalm 139: 13-14.
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